We Only Hurt The Ones We Are

I found myself reclining against a tree this morning, facing the bridge and the lake, watching the boats and cars speed through the band of sunlight bouncing off the water and etching my retinas when it occurred to me: my blog has sucked (more than ever) this whole year. I can't do anything about it now. I soldier on.

Recently I was presented with one of those days when I knew I was cashing in all that karma I'd been squirreling away, but I was firmly convinced it was worth every instance. I highly recommend this, if you can swing it. I feel Reborn In Our Lord Jesus Christ, minus the
In, Our, Lord, Jesus, and Christ. The emotional hangover is a bitch though.

I'm embarking on a small mental experiment. My task is to identify the one thing I want most in any given week and deny myself that one thing, and nothing else. The objective is not masochism so much as it is to discover if I can be honest enough with myself to identify what I truly want, even if it means being denied it. Just a few psychological biopsies to root out some leftover demons. I suppose it all falls under the umbrella of masochism. If anything, it's preemptive masochism, a fingernail scrape now to ward off the blade later. I haven't firmly committed the term "thing" to the intangible or material yet, though I'm leaning toward the former. The latter just seems shallow.

I really liked The Departed.

Listening To: Cat Power - Lived In Bars

A Bit Of The Old "How's Your Father" On The Side

Soooo....
It's finals week (for us art fags anyway) and I seem to have destroyed the AC adapter for my computer. As such, I'm coming to you live from the student lounge. I have no good reason to post, other than my whole body hurts and sitting down feels good. I'm rocking three degrees of burns and quite a few miscellaneous insults to the skin on my hands. And some day I'll look back on this time with misty-eyed nostalgia, I'm sure.
My exhaustion and delerium are evident in that I'm seriously looking into doing some pre-MBA modules and credits before I leave school (hopefully) next fall, so as to enroll in the Distance MBA program later on. This is despite the fact I joined a facebook group entitled "Bugger! I've Been In College For Too Long!" not four days ago.
I had a blister on my left thumb that easily doubled the size of said thumb (mapp gas torch) until a few seconds ago when it burst and oozed all over this public keyboard. I'm suddenly acutely aware of the nasty factor of student lounge computers.
All I Want For Christmas Is An AC Adapter.